i got woken up by shocked today. haha.

dad said: JESSIE! wake up! uncle has reached here already! we have to leave for the airport already!

well i didnt know that my alarm rang at 9am and i off it and went back to sleep. so i quickly got up and bathed. hahas. and i got ready in 45 mins okie! im fast already alright. hahas.

and on the way to the airport. dad stopped by mei zhen xiang to buy bak kwa. i stayed in the car cause im too tired. lazy to walk. haha. dad wanted to buy bak kwa for his taiwan good friends. and im so touched. cause dad also bought me bak kwa. thats so nice of him. im really surprised and happy. hahas. for a moment i wanna hug him tight tight. but abit.. SHY la. hahaha!

met nelson and bro at the airport and sent dad off. hehe. and nelson bro and i head down marina square's kbox. also my complicated workplace. not to work duh. but to SING. haha. the place is fully packed. thank God i called and make reservation. see. even staff gotta make reservation ahs. hahas.

jan and her friend joined in for a little while and they went off to meet another friend. so bro nelson and myself continued. haha.

after that. nelson and myself headed for sushi meal at sakae sushi. hehe. while bro went to look for jan.

then.. we somehow window shopped a little. well i got myself some stuff from the face shop. im look for more face mask. haha.

after that is My SUPER EX-GIRLFRIEND with nelson, cason, jia rui and nicholas aka yt. hehe. not a bad show. funny and interesting.. hehe i quite like it. hehe.

and.. . . pictures again.... ... ..


this is mua dad. he is trying to act CUTE. hahas.


he actually posed infront of the camera....... .........


i could hardly get one shot. oh well. look at his teeth.. please dont smoke my dear friends. my dad smokes as thou its his meal.


i caught him smoking.


look. he posed again..


i entertained myself while im waiting for dad to finish off his hong kee. hahas.


dad and moi.


bro and moi. the person on da line is non other then his dear dear jan..h haha


we were having breakfast at Airports mac. and dads like a small kid. he had mcspicy. and... look at the mayo on his lips..


he said take another side of the lip. hahahs.

at kbox..


checked in as Klunch. 11.10 nett.


nelson!


moi.


dont you think he look stunning today. hahaha! i like this look.










bro and i. well. i wanted to take a normal shot with him. but he just continue eating..


AND DRINKING. my LEMON SPRITE somemore.cause he finished his.


finally..


me and moi and mua




he doesnt like to take pictures with me.


but he dont have any choice. hahas.


honestly. he do have a beautiful smile right..


im actually into doing ugly faces.. and posing. hahas and etc..


















my bro had a pose like that. so i copy him lor. hahas!










ur the best of the best friend i could ever have! :P:P


sakae....


and this is not my sister. its me. hehe. that little red dot? ganna mosquito bite ahs. hahas.


my brother and i. hehe.

well. in all. i have a great day. long day. haha im tired now.

and.. i realised.. ive been loving myself more and more each day. lol.

be blessed world!

im looking at my dad playing tv games. something like SEGA cause its not Play Station. hahas.

theres gun wor. can shoot one. so cool please.

dad wanted to go over third uncles place to stay and ask if i wanna go along since im always following him to everywhere.

but i didnt want to coz i think i wouldnt sleep well over there. i love my bed more. hahas.

initially, dad wanted to just go without me. but after all the whinnings i gave. he said: okie lor den i dont go lor.

and i was like. HAHA okie GOOD. well actually all i did was.. HURR you tomorrow leaving liao can. last night with me also cannot one. sigh................

i had cravings for curry fish head just now so dad and i went for CURRY FISH HEAD dinner. haha! do a little bit of shopping. i tell you, actually, stuffs over at BOssni not very very bad one leh. actually i looked tru the whole shop i only set my eye on one pathetic piece of cloth. hahas.

i reheated the horfun for dad. and he said: eh this one spoil already.. i replied sour smell ahs? he said ya. i said aiya! its the Green chilli one la. he said: orh. den he said: aiya is VINEGAR la. i replied same la! hahas.

and ive counted. my hols are coming soon!

well well.

grandma have been transferred to St Lukes.

was chatting with dad till super duper late last night. and gotta know some stuff that i could never believe. all i could say is.. i should believe God more than mankind. hahas.

couldnt wake up this morning. but dad got awaken up by all the calls from my phone and the alarms. haha. so... he woke me up.. by saying: jessie. wake up leh. i hungry leh. go buy breakfast.

i was like HUH?! so early eat for what. sleep more la. and ignored him. but he just continue and continue to wake me up la. hahas.

so ive got no choice but to drag myself up to walk to the nearby coffeeshop to get him breakfast. hahs.

i called dad up to say im craving for BBQ Stingray and i want him to have dinner with me. but. sadly he cant he gotta help 3rd aunt with her computer and so on la. he, practically have no time for moi. i just said alright please be home early. and dad replied: Yes Mdm. hahas.

and so dad left me with more than enough money for stingray. so im waiting for jan to end work and hoping my bro will not fall asleep and we 3 shall head for stingray!! hahas..

ive never slept so sweet like last night can. or am i too tired? haha. i told dad that why is it only when he got back i could really sleep well. and wonder and wonder. hahs.

i called dad up to report to him what ive bought with the money he gave me. i named out i guess erm 10 over stuffs? and he was like: okie isit my turn now to say? haha. den he continue to talk la. hahas. i think hes so funny.

joanna lee saw me today and she didnt want to give me a tight huggie. im darn sad.

serene saw me today and she came over to moi stall to purchase some stuff. unlike joanna lee. hahas.

darling saw me and gave me a tight hug. unlike joanna lee. LOL

i want stingray....

i thought that if dad were to be back i wouldnt feel any better. but now that he is back. i feel alot alot better. hehe. but i dislike the time when he and i get mad with each other. hahas. the last time was... erm... 4 months back. hahas. thats quite long hor? hahas.

i was doing the milo pushcart thingy this afternoon. and im the cashier. i was like shit.. i needa tick the stuff that was sold. but the prob is ill forget if i did tick it. or even forget if i collected the money. hahas. i was kinda worried la. but well thank God that everything is correct. hahas. and jo was telling our BAzaar director that: you really let her be cashier ah? thanks man jo! dont love u anymore.

i cant wait for sat. haha. i want my sakae sushi!! yes nelson? hahahaha!

im having bad headache again. like the dont know how many times already??

can i have a free brain scan at NUH? hahs.

im feeling giddy. like once in a few while. or am i just too stressed? aHH i dont know lar.

i was with aunt the whole of today. followed her to see how does she handle some stuff. and i saw the police officer who came to aunt place during the mad day. and i said: HI. what a coincidence. and officer said: ya. its sucha coincidence. and laughed. hahas.

waited the whole day coz i wanna visit grandma together with aunt. so i slacked at her office till nightime. i went for tea session with aunt. for a little while i wanna take up making tea classes. chinese tea. theres techniques one leh. im quite amazed by how they do it. hahas.

and. my dad is flying back later in the noon. i was like shocked? i asked:

me: dad. why didnt you tell me you are flying back tomorrow?

dad: tell you for what?

me: thinking- coz im ur DAUGHTER?- but i said you tell everyone you never tell me? HUH?!

dad: i got tell everyone meh?

me: how i know?

dad: okie im coming back tomorrow to see grandma.

me: okie.

dad: im gonna work. gtg. bye. my flight is at .... SQ... tmr.

me: okie. bye.

me thinking: what the hell. im gonna have a tough day tomorrow.

alright. he is really coming back. and if the uncles or aunties spout nonsense to him and he come and scream at me. ill just blow up at him coz he chose to listen to them? or what? i dont know. but i seriously dont know why its a must that he must come back like so soon? i got to know about him flying back tmr only like TODAY?! and theres stuff he didnt tell me about. im kinda sad that he choose not to tell me. we USED to talk about everything.

i wonder whats the definition of "theirs" being involved. coz i was said to be INVOLVED in their stupid problem. coz some people called up my dad to COMPLAIN shit about me that im involved or im at whoever side?! im like HUH? how to get involved when i havent even say anything to them? called dad up but not me to clarify stuff with? dad is like how FAR from us. and someone just called him up and not me? huh? i think that person is really mad. aint happy with me call me lar. why call dad? think dad will just scold me? when i did NOTHING? crazie people. besides. other cousin were there. and im only there too but im just closer to aunt but not them? likedat means im involved? or isit because im blogging about how im feeling? likedat means im involved? what shit is thisss?!!!? and.. ive always been closer to aunt than to them wad.. what they-someone- want? from me? huh??! i seriously dont get it lar. the they im referring to is -someone-.



i dont know if my uncles will read my blog. even if they do i dont give a damn. coz its my blog. i write what i wanna write and how i feel. but well. whatever. someone told me that someone put words into me. so now i shall clarify...

I DID NOT PURPOSLY NOT TURN UP ON SUNDAY MORNING AT 9am BECAUSE IM SICK! i NEED TO SLEEP LONGER and IM SORRY THAT I DIDNT TELL YOU. and im sorry that i turned up with AUNT ONLY ARD 3pm. besides, why cant you stay longer by grandma side till im here? you need not say SHIT about me behind me.. you can just check it out with me like ask me WHY? not just BLAH all those rubbish. im sorry that i fall sick on sunday morning while im at work that i got no strength to get up the next day to take over ya shift to look after grandma. im really sorry. you should be sorry too.. coz you didnt check out what actually happened that i din turned up. and you just anyhow talk nonsense.

im so touched that serene dear called me up in the later night to ask how im doing. thanks dear. its so nice to know that someone cares. or.. i know you miss me coz ive not been calling/smsing/appearing for afew days. haha. i know you miss my prescence right. hahas. but whatever it is. i love you many! thanks for being here. hahas.

to my dearest jo. i miss you too. sorry that i din ring you up or anything. things just aint doing really well for me. but well its just temporary. it'll soon be over. hehe. i love you loads. i miss ya voice so much!

ps: jeremy. i hope you did receive my email. time just dont allow me to get you on msn.

Dear LORD. please bless me! let the headaches ive been having to be gone! amen!!!

i miss my beloveds alot alot. can you guys give me a tight tight huggie when you see me? i think i really need it.

-low spirit-

im tired.

im having headaches.

im having flu.

im having cough.

im having fever.

i went to St Lukes Hospital after visiting grandma over at National Uni Hospital. i went to check out the surroundings and how do the people there work. i reached the place. wasnt very satisfied with the place. ill rather grandma stay at NUH rather than transferring her there. the place is so small. and the hospitals policy is that noone could stay over at the place with the patient. how can this do? my grandma can never and should never be left alone in any hospital.

they also say its a elderly care center. so in another words isit an Old Folks Home? my grandma have to go over to St lukes for rehabilitation. sighs. is there any rehabilitation hospital in Singapore that allows the relative of the patient to stay over? my grandma teared at the hospital just now. sigh...

i went to visit grandpa at CCK cemetry this noon. i miss him so so much.

due to my fever cum the coughs and flus. im not able to go for the blood donation drive anymore. sigh!

oh. and i saw one handsome doctor haha. . . . .

my day wasnt very good yesterday.

went to work. long time over at work taking care of the kids and read them stories and they just wanna me to read the same old story again and again with actions. so im like acting infront of them. and im running a fever too..

met nelson to catch click together. and its his third time watching it. just to accompany me. thanks. but when the show has reached its climax. i received one mad call. from my aunt. telling me my uncles and aunties are over at her place making a din over there. so... i left in the midst of the show. DAMN!

im afraid that they might quarrel right infront of my grandmas prescence. so i rushed over in a cab. and i saw ambulance down the carpark. and i rushed to aunts place i saw many many people. police paramedics all came to see free show. my fourth uncle whos the riches in the family beat my smallest aunt. damn he is a BASTARD. he beat her right infront of my grandma. how bastard can he be? and told aunt not to tell the police about it.

he can HAO LIAN to me that he knows CHC's Pastor. so WHAT? he can have many business kinda friends so WHAT? in his freaking face cum character.. please dont go tell everyone you are a christian. i rushed there looking at the adults quarrelling. i was like HELLO? how old are you people? scold each other saying what liars and whatever shit. im so disappointed in them.

i dont give a damn that he is damn rich lar. i hate him for being a bastard. darn. i screamed infront of all of them to ask them to leave grandmas room to settle all their shit outside the room. they dont listen. they are damn childish. scold their own sisters and say shit of everything.

i was waiting for uncle francis to create havoc so i could scream the hell outta him but the moment i reached the place.. he ACTED as if nothing happened. he is an ASSHOLE. whats with the riches? big deal? evil riches.

was there with my fever and im feeling super uncomfortable. and i still have to convince grandma to go to the hospital. she had a stroke on her left brain that causes her right side of body aint functioning well. and she complained that her right hand hurts and i was like... oh God.. i rather the pain is with me lar. she so damn weak already.

eldest cousin were there too.. she seen everything. i hope all my cousins know what had happened to see the true colors of the evils.

i was rude. i did not greet all of them. evils! all of them turned against my two aunties.

and grandma got admitted in the end. and my third aunt and uncle just head to work after all the quarrels. did not even visit my grandma on her last admission. do you call this filial? they dont even have basic respect for each other. im so terribly disappointed in them lar.

they said aunt causes grandpas death. all the shit. see. how hurtful words they could even bring out. and said aunt punch grandma? i was like.. oh goodness are you talking sensible stuff?

security came too. and was asked to get out angrily by my uncle.

and dad wanted to come back from taiwan. i was like: come back for wad? he cant do much too. he din even phone me to know what exactly happened and just scolded bro. what the hell?

and i was being aimed for all the suaning yesterday by cousins mom. damn. i say her back again. and i feel really good. please lar. shes so damn san ba. she is a ba po. wu po also. haha. whatever po la. im being nice not to scold her already.

and im still running a fever now.. sigh..... i really wanna watch click can!

may peace be with my family. let there be love among us. sigh. i really hope lar. theres some problems occured at uncle francis coffeeshop i was like GOOD let him be poorer. thou he is still rich. but i realised if he is poor he will aim my home for money. so im praying hard that all his problem will soon be solved and get richer. haha! i want peace for myself. haaha!

the main sucker is FA. they are CMI.

would you choose to believe someone who took care of you almost over a decade or someone who said that they wanna take care of you but in the end they didnt? would you believe someone who despises you? would you believe the evil riches? i choose to believe someone who took care of me over a decade.

-headache-

i went dragon boating with my fellow classmates.

it can be alot more fun if theres more -mo qi- between the team lar. hahas. but well. our instructor Bryan said that its not about losing. its about teamwork so on and so forth. haha. he said we learned from losing but doesnt mean must lose to learn. haha! i wanted to LOL. and not forgetting our instructor Edward too. if im not wrong la. hahas. he wore this sunglass super duper ........ cant see his eyes. oh.. thats what sunglasses are made for. hahaha. block the sun. haHAS.!!!!

my arms aching. hahas. i quite like dragon boating. we played games and our group lost twice? hahas. we played the monster if im not wrong and the moment i heard it i was like HUH how?

we did not win the small competition.. but i had a great time experiencing the goodness of dragon boating, the funs and all. i had a great time i must say. hehe.

i was chatting with dad online last night and my little sister was like hello jie jie. and she mumbled and mumbled then dad said: she say you pretty. den i was like? haha thank you RU XIN~ thats her name. den she continue playing in front of the webcam and so i entertained her. i do those ugly faces and she did after me. haha. so cute. hahas. but awhile later she bo chup me. so..i took pictures of her. and know what? shes THREE YEARS old already. ive not even met her in person since she was born...and in a blink of an eye... shes three....

after dragon boating. sab ain and myself headed down bugis for lunch.. were super duper hungry. and i was craving for chicken rice. hehe. so had lunch over at food junction. and know what? its my first visit to the food junction over at bugis. hahas and juli joined us after that

i went to visit grandma over at NUH yesterday. she had stroke on her right hand. and front fall on her face and couldnt walk still. the swell is gone already. and she keep on telling me to eat more.

now she couldnt talk like she always does. im so sad. sigh. i miss my grandma alot alot.

was there and my -da po mu- and -da po- was also there. my gosh. this two peoples here is my hell day lar. but well i have no choice but to greet them and say hi and continue chatting with them.

but. its more like im at the police station being questioned and questioned. both the husband and wife is terrible la. what so nice about comparison? they asked me about my school work. and i answered: hao hao lor. i din wanted to tell them the details of how did i fare in it. coz i know no matter i well i do in their eyes im only an ITE student. im not sad that im part of ITE. actually im proud that im from ITE. haha. but i hate the impression and the tone of voice i receive from them. it totally suck big time. and she keep saying about me not eating and becoming like a bone and all those shit lar. hello if your eyes can see. i still have got that little fats in me lar. dont say as thou im overly skinny like im gonna die due to the lack of whatever shit you want la. in the past she squeesed my fats and said im so darn fat. and ive slimmed down and she pressed my waist and said: i think you waist inch only 18 lar hor?. and they continue to compare me with my dear xin er. i know xin er is a very smart girl and im so proud of her. im so happy that shes my cousin and i love her so much. i need not them to remind me the goodness of my beloved xin er. i know shes good. i know.

but well they continued. in five minutes i was outside the isolation room. with them. they both aimed me and continue saying the shit outta me la. said some stuff about my past and i got quite upset so i shooted back to him and said: its was when i was only 13. and your talking about it now? are you still living in the past? and to her: why you keep on comparing xin er and me? and she asked if i regretted for not being wiser in the past. i replied i never regret. please la. who dont learn when they fall? he asked about studies. i said i wanna study hard and hopefully i could enter a polytechnic. he replied: huh? you will study one meh? i thought you dont study one? and gave me that look that i feel like throwing stones at him. i replied: yes i wanna study. and im not like my past who dont give a damn about school work.

and darn i feel so demoralised. oh well. im used to it. people like them always find me to aim. even on chinese new year. family gathering. im their main target. what so nice can you find in demoralising people and saying them? i see no point. whats the fun of doing that?

they asked me: your brother CHU BING liao ah? my heart was like laughing really out loud. hello you got study one bo? CHU BING IS PEOPLE die and so on lar. i replied: gor gor dan wan bing liao. hahaha! i replied and gave them one look lar. i wonder how they feel. but im feeling really good. if your really so damn smart. use it when your talking. dont make people feel you only know how to talk only.

well i guess after the little of shooting back i gave yesterday they know im not that easily to bullied anymore. i hope they know that they had gone over the limit of ma tolerance. i dont mind people saying me demoralising me insluting or whatever. ill take all of it. but once its over the level i could take in. dont blame me for being rude to shoot everything outta you. and i dont feel good after all the shooting back. i feel quite tired actually. why am i cracking my brain about how to say people? the bad things about people? i think i should crack my brain more thinking about the goodness of them. hahas.

and so.. nightime came.. and daddys online. i clicked on him and complained the whole stuff about them to him. and he just LOL over at taiwan. please lar dad. your beloved here is being bullied lor. haha! and dad says im vain. haha. well i AM. getting more vain. hahas.

i slept at 5am this morning and got up at 630am and headed for dragon boating. was out den came home and went coma. haha. my brother said: i thought you were dead. i replied why? he said: you sleep so long. i waited for you for dinner till i fall asleep lor. haha. i complained to brother about that. and he said: haha they offended wrong person already. hahaha! i was like ya. silence doesnt mean im weak. hahas and moreover, smaller in size people are not that weak too.

im amazed tat someone can just sms me to chit chat and asked more than six questions. hahas. or isit me that is having a problem? i wonder. hahas.

oh yes. i needa thank someone. to joeHo. thanks for forwarding that email to me. i really need that information. haha! thanks.


ma sister! she is -zheng ru xin-










walking to our destination.




this is where we dragon boat.




ain and moi on da way to bugis.




WHRE's AIN?


did you SEE HER? haha there she is! haha













i had fun today. and i wanna get the biscuit from Marks and Spencer!!